my2babysmama – a homeschooling journey

Hello!  Welcome to my homeschooling blog! My name is Melanie and I am mama to two wonderful kiddos.

Super Stuffy is 11                                      

                                                             Bear Bear is 9                                                                  

I kind of fell into the name of my2babysmama by accident. My goals for my life were four: to become a teacher; to get married; to have children, and to be a homeschooling mama. Everything I did while growing up was focused on becoming a teacher. There was nothing else that I ever wanted to do.

On my way to being a teacher, I was always on the lookout for a husband. I thought that I had found a good one, but we divorced after seven years. Thankfully, we did not have any children. One of the good things about being a teacher was that if I didn’t have any children of my own I could adopt my students into my heart.

During my last teaching assignment, I remarried and this time we were discussing having a child right away. I was so excited, but we were going to wait for a few months. Shortly thereafter, my school board decided not to renew my contract for the next year. It was heartbreaking, but looking back at it, it opened the door for Super Stuffy. It hurt so much that I decided to move up the “trying to get pregnant” time by a month or two. I did this all on my own, however, I did tell my husband before I actually got pregnant.

Super Stuffy joined our family the day before our first anniversary. Now I had achieved all three of my lifelong goals.  In both of our families, girls are scarce and my husband’s immediate family had no girls at all. So we wanted to try for a girl. I got pregnant 14 months after Super Stuffy was born, and Bear Bear was born 7 1/2 months later. I had my 2 babies. My husband and I were older when our children were born, so after Bear Bear joined us, we decided to be finished having babies.

There are 21 months in between Super Stuffy and Bear Bear, so they were babies together. Super Stuffy was a cuddlebug and he loved to sit on my lap. Bear Bear was a cuddlebug as well, but she would get up and down constantly. They both liked sitting on my lap at the same time, so after awhile I would say, “My two babies” in their ears as we were cuddling together. We belonged together.

Since I desired to be a mama for my entire life (and I really dislike being called “mommy”), I started to identify myself as “my two babies mama”. When I was signing up to become a member of the Rapture Ready website forums, I decided to use that identification. However, it would not let me fit in the “ie” of babies, so I decided to change it to “y” and I have used that identification ever since.

Being a homeschooling mama has been the best thing that I have ever done, but also the hardest thing that I have ever done.  But sometimes it doesn’t feel like it’s enough.  My mandate is to “go and make disciples”.  Is it enough to just be teaching my children and raising them in the love of the Lord?  I have asked the Lord if this is really where He wants me to be, and the answer that I receive consistently is this:  “Stay home and be a good mama.”

Okay, Lord.  Since that is what I really want to do, I accept.  But is it enough?  All those people out there who are making a big splash, doing wonderful things for you – I will never come close to those standards.  Is just staying home and teaching my own kids making enough of a difference?  What difference does it make?

That is the question that I have struggled with for the past 10 years.  I continue the struggle.  Being the amazing mom that I read about on Pinterest is an unreachable dream, and I will never be as perfect as those moms in all those homeschooling blogs that I am subscribed to.  My hope is that I will continue learning that I don’t need to be.  I can just be myself, and be the best mom that I can be for my kids.  Since the Lord has called me to be the mama to these two beautiful children then He will give me the tools and the grace that I need to do this job.

The purpose of this blog is to help other homeschooling mamas and myself to live in God’s grace, educate our children with passion, and discover our worth so that we can entrust our children to the Lord, that they will grow in His love, and live their lives according to His will.

I love being my2babysmama. My children and my husband are the greatest gifts that the Lord has given to me besides Himself.

I hope that you will join me on this journey, that we can learn together how to be homeschooling mamas who live each day in the light of God’s grace.

[wpforms id=”111″]